I was relating to my wife, the lovely Sweet Vee, a realization I had when talking to my headshrinker. I realized that I really am just a little girl in ways because I never got to be one, but longed for the little girl things, so in essence I'm starting from there. Anyway, I was telling the shrink that it really hit home with me when I was looking at the notebook I brought to take notes in and was overcome with the feeling that it needed stickers to be more pretty. The next day, Sweet Vee, bought me a bunch of Tinkerbell stickers and a Tinkerbell book (cause she knows I LUV Tinkerbell) Of course I promptly festooned my cell phone with the kewl stickers and my notebook, too. This picture above is from one of my favorite websites http://www.tinkfanatic.com/ , check it out if you're into Tink too. C'mon, I know you are, everybody luvs Tink!
So, what the hell is Kynni-chemy anyway? Kynni-Chemy is the alchemy I apply to myself, Kyndra (Kynni). And as you may know alchemy is the ancient pursuit of changing lead into gold; transformation. I am in the process of transforming myself into someone a little more, someone who feels whole and complete, and in a sense, golden. So who is Kyndra? Well I'm a lifetime TS who is late to bloom. I spent my entire life cowering, timid and afraid and have finally decided after nearly 40yrs. that it is time to finally be me, or at least as much of me as I can achieve. The little girl that was always me, who had to reside for decades only in my mind as if she were confined to a dank dungeon for crimes unknown, behind an iron door well guarded by society's theocon vanguards, is finally free now. The door has rusted off it's hinges and fallen open, it's guards aged and irrelevant no longer have the power to keep me from skipping out into the light! And that golden light of freedom of self is where I intend to dwell from now on.
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